plugin&play
If you read, you will judge. | ||||||||
My Dear we're slow dancing in a burning room |
Friday, January 15, 2010, 10:14 PM
You're the single most black-hearted, ungrateful, selfish, childish, sick-in-the-head rubbish dump fucks i've ever had the displeasure of meeting and i sincerely hope, from the bottom of my heart, that you get all the shit that you deserve, in this life or the next. You disgust me and i honestly am convinced that your eradication from the face of this earth would do the world some good. Friday, January 1, 2010, 4:44 PM
You know when it's a dream.
I don't know bout you, but the past 12 months felt like 12 seconds. It feels like a lifetime of experiences went by in the span of 12 whole seconds. I'm not entirely certain what to make of it all. It's like a sudden clarity that i see the world in. I once stared into the mirror and saw a 16 year old douche who thought he knew so much of this world that he could conquer. A shoddy machiavellian idiot who thought so little of the world and all who inhabit it. I have an endless list of people to thank for that person's disappearing act. It's overwhelming, but i guess at some point, everybody's gotta grow up. And 2009 was graduation for me. Ok so i've prolly got a heck lot more to learn about life, love and everything else in between, but at this point, it feels like i've grown so much already. I can't imagine what i'd feel like next year. I cruised around a few blogs today and realized how many people are putting up their new year's resolutions. I'd do the same except, i don't have any. I've never had any. I've always lived on a moment to moment basis, whatever happens happens kinda thing. I find pre-planning constricting sometimes. But i guess, giving it a shot couldn't do any harm. I hate putting things into points, so i'm just gonna write a letter to future self. Dear Future me, Hello fatboy. First things first, whatever rehearsals are doing to your body, it's working. So by the time you read this, you've gotta be the size of lindsay lohan's ear lobe. That means, you've gotta always keep moving. Keep dancing, keep jumping, keep running, whatever the hell it takes. And quit the food. You've been doing great on the "i'm not hungry" campaign for the past couple of months so hang onto that one. I've a sneaky little feeling that you're slim now. If you are, then i'm sorry for calling you fatboy. If you're not, then get out now and take a 5 day jog to Zimbabwe you bubbling lump of fat. Secondly, I hope you're a stronger person. Not physically, no. I mean, in your mind. You prolly would've finished the A levels by now and i bet that was a real kick in the nut sacks. You would've ended your contract with Acsian Theatre and the Comm so you should be breathing easy now. I hope you managed to balance both of those things perfectly. By now, you should be an expert juggler of the stage and the studies. Hope those two have gotten along perfectly and that you're happy. I hope your IS went well. I hope you didn't give Cassi, Sherlyn or Tim a hard time in your IS and that you managed to "charm the audience" as you planned to do so about two months ago from now. I hope your GS was as funny as ever and that everyone who watched Culminatio went home with a side splitting stitch from laughter. I hope you stopped looking for someone to love, cos you know damn well that for the both of us, finding love is like trying to catch a fish in big grass field. So let it come to you instead ok casanova? I hope you get closer to your art. Not just your music or your stage, but i mean the general expression of life through art which you so love to do. I hope Franchessca hasn't broken any strings cos it's a bitch to replace them. I hope you haven't lost touch with your piano and play it at least once a week like you've been doing for the past 8 years. I hope you're still singing every second of your life away. You weren't born to shut up, so don't. And lastly, i hope you see. I hope you never change yourself just to make someone else happy, i hope that by the time you're reading this, i would've grown more. I hope that you never forget who you are and the people who love you who've made you who you are. You see, future me, i've learnt that the world is not in black and white. Nothing is truly ever wrong. It's all just in shades of grey. Who has the right to define what's red and what's green or what's right and wrong? And it's not always about how good you are at doing something, but it's about how much you love doing it. So do what you love and love what you do, and i hope you never lose grip of your heart. Love is rare, so keep holding on to that big heart of yours, future me. One more thing. I sincerely hope that you've managed to grow a full beard by now. Like, a real caveman type beard that you've always dreamed of getting. Cos all that i'm shaving off now are pathetic sprouts that surround my lips and cheeks, but i'm sure you know that. Well, that's all, future me. Don't bother writing back, i won't be able to receive it. I love you alright? I do. I'll seeyuh when i seeyuh. Love, Present me. (Which is past you to you, future me.) |
the machiavellian ist
Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.Andrew. Music. Food. People. What more could you possibly want? |
partnersincrime
One day when i wake up and find the motive and time to link anybody, i'll let you know. backtoyesterday
+ Truth is, babe, I love you too. + Sometimes I walk out the door with a smile on my f... + Moments are a lot more real than what you make the... + Only when you can separate the mind from the heart... + Life is becoming a day old chewing gum that's gone... + The world has too much to say sometimes. Every ind... + It's starting to get dark now and the world around... + The heart is thrown into a free fall and the very ... + I've pictured that moment before. About one year a... + Hero. You think you're getting somewhere, slim, bu... wheni'mgone
+ April 2007 + May 2007 + June 2007 + July 2007 + August 2007 + September 2007 + October 2007 + November 2007 + December 2007 + January 2008 + February 2008 + March 2008 + April 2008 + May 2008 + June 2008 + July 2008 + August 2008 + September 2008 + October 2008 + November 2008 + December 2008 + January 2009 + February 2009 + March 2009 + April 2009 + May 2009 + June 2009 + July 2009 + August 2009 + September 2009 + October 2009 + November 2009 + December 2009 + January 2010 + February 2010 + March 2010 + April 2010 + June 2010 + July 2010 + August 2010 + September 2010 + October 2010 + November 2010 + December 2010 + January 2011 + February 2011 + March 2011 + April 2011 takeabow
An accidentality production Inspiration from DancingSheep & BONBON:D |
theventingmachine
|