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My Dear we're slow dancing in a burning room |
Wednesday, August 18, 2010, 7:41 PM
I'm losing it. This is my A levels, and i'm losing it. I got to bed last at 10 but only fell asleep at 3. My bullet train brain not stopping for a second. I wait. I breathe, in and out, in and out, through my nose, no, through my mouth, do i normally breathe through my nose or my mouth? Which should i breathe through my nose or my mouth? My nose is a little blocked ok i'll breathe through my mouth. Now my mouth is drying up, i need to wet it. I swallow. Feels better. Wait, do i normally swallow when i sleep? Should i swallow again? How do i sleep now when i'm sposed to swallow and breathe? Ok just try to be calm. Breathe in and out, in and out, through the mouth, now through the nose, no through the mouth for god's sake ok now swallow, breathe through the mouth, now swallow. Ok stop swallowing it's making me uncomfortable and i can't get to sleep like this. Don't swallow. I need to swallow. I feel the urge kicking at the back of my throat. I control myself. Do not swallow. I'm not breathing oh godammit i swallowed. Stay calm, you'll go mad at this rate, just breathe, think of nothingness and just go to sleep. Darkness. Nothingness. Waiting. Just waiting. Why am i not asleep? I'm still waiting to sleep. I'm still not sleeping! Breathe, nose, mouth, swallow- NO don't swallow, i'm still awake for fuck's sake. It went on like that for about 3 hours before i think i just got so physically exhausted that my body shut my brain down. The hell is wrong with me. I hope for my own sake that i don't think tonight. Just don't think. I need my music. |
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