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Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 7:44 PM
If you need it then i want you to.
Maybe cos my O levels kinda start tomorrow. So im gonna take a hike for awhile, but i'll be back. I promised myself i wouldn't post till after all this nonsense is over, but i can't promise you that promise will be kept. I'll do my best anyway. Its been a hectic week, and the shitload just gets bigger and bigger. It gets hard after awhile to handle all of it, but i'm still hanging on. For now anyway. Wish me luck as i go. This is the moment i've been waiting for for ages, its finally time to get this crap over and done with so i can celebrate like the world's ending. pfft. I'll seeyuh when i seeyuh. Oh, one more thing before i go. I thought i'd practice my free writing here. Just to prep for Tuesday. This topic is "Something you cherished dearly which you had to give up". He saw it coming. He wasn't sure how, or why, but he always saw it coming. Some way or another, he knew this would happen. The Silence was unbearable. Marriage vows never promised anything more than a promise. Words, blank floating words which loose meaning after awhile. He, if anything, knew that. How still she lay now, wires and needles denied her movement, not that she could move even if they weren't there. She could never do it on her own, her laundry, her cooking, her shopping, and now, her breathing. His shaking hands grabbed hers, squeezing them, a gentle assurance that he was still here, that he was not leaving, she used to squeeze back, their secret code for "I love you", but her hand lay still, cold and lifeless. "Mr Remeriz?" "Doctor, is she gonna be ok? I swear i felt her trying to squeeze my hand earlier on, i felt it, i felt her again. Please tell me she's gonna wake up from this." "Its complicated, she's been in a coma for weeks now and we can't keep her on life support for any longer-" "No you can't do that" "Im sorry?" "You can't do that. You cant just walk in here and tell me my wife's not gonna be ok, you're a doctor for god's sake can't you do anything? Can't you say anything better than that?" "Mr Remeriz, im a man of science. I can't lie to you, neither can i tell you something and stand by it when the facts don't agree with me. But i can hope with you, if you wish i can pray for you, but im afraid that is the best i can do. I'm sorry." "No, no come on ive had so little time with her!" "Well you should've been here weeks ago" "She didn't tell me alright? We were having this fight and she just didn't talk to me for over a month, i had no idea she had been smashed by a car, believe me doctor stevens if i could, i would've taken the blow for her, cos i love her more than anything else in this world. Believe me i do." " I'm very sorry to hear that, but you have to understand, we have given her time, she's still not awoken, there are people out there who have that oppurtunity to have time, there are people who have higher chances of surviving than your wife. I know this is hard, but we need you to pull the plug. We'll give you 48 hours." Her heart was beating. Beep. The machine said so. He stared at the moniter that displayed the waves of activity her heart was making, he knew it wasn't her doing it, but he treasured it anyway, anything to tell him she was still alive. Beep. "Sarah." Beep. "Sarah if you can hear me, please talk to me, please wake up from this, Sarah." Beep. "Honey i'm so sorry. Im so so sorry. This is all my fault, i shouldn't have let you leave like that, when you walked out that door, i wanted to stop you like i knew i should've, but i let you go. And im so sorry." Beep. "I dont wanna let you go again. But i have to. Sarah, i have to let you go again." Beep. "Do you remember when we walked down the aisle? With your mother in the front looking at me like i was a threat, and all those people watching us, i know you wanted a small quiet wedding, but i couldn't help it, i wanted to tell the world how much i love you." Beep. "I would promise to love and to cherish, i'd promise to have and to hold, through sickness and in health, i'd promise to be there till death do us part. But i can't do that. I can't promise you that. I can't promise you, cos im sure. Im sure that you're the woman i want to wake up with every morning, im sure that for you, i'd take my heart out and place it in your palm, just to tell you how much i love you. I dont want to promise you, because im telling you. I'm telling you that i love you." Beep. "I love you, Sarah. I'm sorry." The longest beep he had ever heard echoed around the room. He stood up and turned away. "Goodbye, Sarah." ao [EDIT] Words I've used before On all the wrong faces. But I'm going to use The rest of my life, Proving to you Those words were lies. And of the million things A heart can hold And of all the things I've come to know, I Love. I need Love I can see I'll be alright With you now by my side. But if tomorrow you're gone And I still go on I promise to Spend the rest of me on you. People say we are where we belong. We hold each other's hands As if we're holding on. And to me a little of your you Is like A little bit of sun That makes the moon. And if the "If"s we plan around become "When"s If our center aisle narrows and bends our Love. I need love. I can see that I'll be alright With you now By my side. And if tomorrow you're gone, And I still go on I promise to Spend the rest of me On you. And If there ever was a shred of doubt This hopelessly romantic now And I hope that time can slow us down And minutes pass like hours now And all the clocks counting down To Love. I need Love. I can see that I'll be alright With you now by my side. And if tomorrow you're gone And I still go on I'll promise to Spend the rest of me on you [End of Edit] |
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